I can see, yet I can't see at all. I over look the stuff that hurts me the most and I still get hurt, bc I'm blind-sided in the end. I don't know what to do. I write in my journal in hopes that someone will find it and read it. Maybe I'll be set free then. but I doubt it. I couldn't be that lucky. i don't want to be down anymore. I will get over it though.
Have you ever been reading a book that is just fabulous. It keeps your attention the whole way through. But by the last 3 or 4 chapters the story is revealed. That happened to me last night when I was reading the book Fatal Tide. I didn't even want to read the last 4 chapters. I was like what's the point. They were just filler to make the book longer I guess. But I didn't not want to not read them, because I might have missed something. Only to come to find out tht I didn't miss anything at all.
So there was this spider on my ceiling last night. It made it so I couldn't sleep at all. I even moved to another couch and tried to sleep there. I was in a completely different room and it still affected my sleep. blah.
So I sit here at the house bored out of my mind. I would go do something, but Enterprise is dead today. I've gotten all dressed up with nowhere to go. Ha, sounds like a personal problem. I'm glad I've been able to sit back and relax though. The karaoke finals are tonight. I won't be singing in them, but i'll probably watch them.
